Don't Read This Book: Francis Chan's "Crazy Love"
The "Magic" in Words

Hard Questions, Crazy Love

"Are you willing to say to God that He can have whatever he wants?  Do you believe that wholehearted commitment to Him is more important than any other thing or person in your life?  Do you know that nothing you do in this life will ever matter, unless it is about loving God and loving the people He has made?

(Francis Chan, in Crazy Love)

I don't like thinking about these questions at all.  To be honest, I can answer them affirmatively in some theoretical sense, but when it comes to reality, when it comes to how I really live my life, I can't.  To write them down where I have to see them takes only a smidgen of courage, like keeping Chan's book lying on my desk where I can't escape its red cover, the words "crazy love" beckoning me.  It says: "What are you going to do about this?  Will you just read me and put me down?"

In 1976 I was a freshman in college where I became an enthusiastic part of Inter-Varsity Christian Fellowship.  On December 26th, I found myself on the campus of the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champlain for the triennial Urbana Missions Conference.  I barely knew where I was going, just that I wanted to be with these people, these Christians.  And then to see 17,000 gathered in one place was overwhelming to me.  

On Thursday evening, the last evening of the conference, Billy Graham addressed us.  I grew up hearing Billy Graham on television.  I knew the sermon. I knew the call.  But that evening was incredible.  Billy Graham asked who would go wherever God sent them.  Many stood.  I stood up.  It was an incredible moment, a sobering moment, and one I cannot forget.

I didn't go far, really, but sometimes, when I read questions like Chan's, I wonder if I rationalized things God said to me, if I made excuses, if I'm really willing to go anywhere and do anything and give anything up for Him.

Love is the only power that will make a person do such a thing.  Love is the only thing He will accept.  All I know to do is pray for that kind of love.